Expectations

 So many expectations,

so little time.

Too many limitations.

To this, I ask why?

I don’t understand

The role I must play.

I often feel damned.

Is life just this way?

I wish people could see

The struggle inside.

Do they hear my plea?

Again, I ask why?

Me

 I love you,

But you don’t love me.

I make you my priority,

But you say my pain is a normality.

The damn cracks,

But they can’t see.

Cause the fights between you and me.

Fighting till I bleed.

How can I run,

With you holding my hand.

And whisper that you care for me.

All the while making me scream.

The damn broke,

And I did too.

As the realization came,

That you and I are one in the same.

What have I done

 Damn it.

I did it again.

Will there ever be an end?

I run,

Thinking I’m free.

But it ends when they point at me.

The fear comes,

And shuts everything out.

And my brain fills with nothing but doubt.

Am I insane?

What have I done?

Grandaddy

 

I wasn’t ready to lose you.

I don’t think I’ll ever be.

It’s so hard and it hurts,

you were so special to me.

But I know in my heart,

that it’ll be okay.

Because God has a plan,

and he showed you the way.

Your home is in Heaven,

as you watch from above.

I can’t wait to see you,

as we remember your love.

A memory so sweet,

so funny and kind.

I love you Grandaddy,

for now and all time.